One of the Poems I have written

Hugging my knees
head upon my hands
in a black box
not wanting to stand

I can picture the outside
red hearts and streamers
sunshine and smiles
I try but can not reach it

I have been looking for happiness
but since you, I've had none
weeks feel like months
since you've been gone

Before I met you, no one
No One made me feel
carefree and beautiful
now I'm not sure if it was real

Is it just the kind of man your are
able to gently hold someones heart
giving them hope
and at the same time tearing them apart

My heart and my soul
have been broken once more
and yet I still keep hope
one day I'll find you-at my door