pony

feeling a bit pony tonight.

Its been a lush sunny day, i started work at 6am and finished at 12pm glad to get it out of the way! couldn't sleep at all last night though, I'm stressing about my uni work, so pointless stressing but I can barely help it.

I've found 2 four leaved clovers in 2 days!!! craziness. Something big is gonna happen lol. Doubtful.

My dad used to say, "You find a four leaved clover and that's about all the luck you get!"

heh.

Feeling pooie.

I met a fellow aquarian yesterday, he was really cool and we got on really well, he's supposed to be coming to newport to see me again tomoz but he's gone to Oxford this eve for his mates birthday and i havent heard from him since this morn. I have txt him but no reply, I'm just being impatient but I wanna know whats going on hah. I know he reeeeeally likes me, but you never know how easily a man can change his mind, get scared, distracted etc etc. I guess i'll just have to be patient and hope he txts me soon. I haven't felt like this about someone not txting me back straight away for quite a while now, he must be special to me.

I've never dated another Aquarian before, i think i've been missing out, it just fits so easily, so much openess to the point of almost crudeness, i like it. He could still be a dickhead, and a liar, he probably is, i have a feeling, but its so much fun being around someone who is as odd as me but in totally different ways!

I'm so tired, i need to study, but i dont think i can until i've slept. but i dont think i can sleep until i've studied :S

ok, i'm just going to say it, I want to meet someone just like Brandon Boyd. I've tried to convince myself I don't think he's f****** awesome, but he is, and it's annoying haha. Or at least the person I think he is, I don't know the guy afterall.

I know I wont ever be able to settle for less, I really wish i could, i've tried to, but it never works, its not fair on the other person for me to keep trying either, who ever the next poor soul will be :/

I need some who is passionate about life, passionate about being open and creative, not necessarily in a massively artistic way, but creative with their words and ideas about life and the universe. I need someone who is adventurous, within the world and the mind. I need someone who always wants to know more about themselves and other people, the environment. I need someone who actively tries to make the world a better place, even if it is in the smallest of ways. I need someone who is massively compassionate about other humans and living beings in general. I need someone who has an interest I everything. I need someone who at least likes science. Ideally they will like the sea and water in general. But if they don't I can settle for them liking the outdoors in general, mountains, forests, beaches, gardens, parks, streams, lakes, fields, spiders webs, plants growing out of drainpipes and around the back of greenhouses. Beetles and bees, birds, flowers, different shaped leaves, skeletal leaves, fungi, shapes of branches, a pattern in the mud, moths, water splashed on a bathroom wall, the squiggly mud expelled by earthworms,  it all fascinates me. 

i guess he doesn't really exist :'(

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